28 Years Later…
As I begin this post, I am 27 years of age. It’s March 3rd, 2024, 9:52p. Once it strikes midnight I’ll be 28 years of age.
I feel as if my frontal lobe is at the start of developing. I’ve had many realizations as of late. The desire of life becoming more of simplicities over distractions and maximalism. Finally aligning to the knowing that I don’t “need” or “want” more than what is in my life now.
The transition from 27 to 28 has been a little bumpy. As if the last parts of me that thrived in chaos even if organized, was still holding on.
I’ve decided I’m going to honor what the 25 year old in me desired. I really wanted to celebrate 25 years with a Spongebob themed party. All with the funny cake topper or print that Spongebob and Patrick joked about the numbers 24 & 25. “What’s funnier than 24? 25”
That never went according to plan. All is well though, because for 2025, I was able to patiently wait and do the reference since it’s 2025. I got the print and plan to add 20 next to 25 onto the edible picture and will place the picture on top of my birthday cookie cake! (:
This is probably the first Birthday in years if not a decade where I planned with an importance behind my aging. I embrace that we all get older and closer to what everyone fears. I feel death is feared more than it should be, it’s inevitable.
I feel each decade that we live, in honor of those who don’t have the opportunity of growing old, is meant to show us levels of what we didn’t know. Each decade honoring an era that’ll never be again. How we all have those individual paths, and for our whole lives experience it differently from each other. I see beauty in living a life that’s never been experienced the same as myself.
One might feel lonely when reading that, however I’ve learned early on in life that while yes we each walk our individual life plans by ourselves, we are never truly alone. We will feel lonely here and there, yet there’s always a support system waiting for us even if we are the ones, who take the first step towards that.
One of my biggest lessons I experienced in chapter 27, is that we will always go in and out of connections, be relationships, groups, communities. A reflection I have from this, are how we are to be grateful we had the opportunity to experience one another. Even if those experiences weren’t all sunshines and rainbows. That’s the point of human experience. All the lows, highs, and in-betweens. We are often reminded that we are mirrors for everyone we interact with, even when brushed with encounters that we tend to be in denial on how we could ever align to them. Yet no accountability or responsibility of how we got to that connection. An ignorance to bliss pipeline of a sort. Until our repeating cycles are right in our faces to show us that we are the reason we keep looping in the same connections yet different bodies or faces.
I smile as I continue to write this because the version of me who once used to heavily believe in manifestation now realizes I was only trying to be controlling with a new label for it.
I’ve been investing energy towards focusing on my “need” for control. When one of my biggest desires is quite literally the opposite of control; Freedom. To be free means there is no room for control. I had a realization that when your mindset is of desire, you attract the opposite of what you desire, to experience it. Then to review and see if what you desire is meant to be intended towards still.
Another tip I will mention here towards desires, is how we word or think about the desire can have a huge impact on how we align to it. Meaning you can align to exactly what you think or even “ideate”. Most times we align to the idea of what we desire, rather than the desire itself. It’s a practice I come to the knowing of all too well. Anytime I catch on that I did indeed align to my desire, just not verbatim the desire, but what, how, when, and where the desire was “ideated” to be. Realizing that I then tried to control the desire and not allow myself the space and time to align to it naturally.
I am looking forward to what Year 28 has for me energetically, and what alignments my energy has the opportunities to experience!
Finished writing at 10:25p. Now I will enjoy the last hour and half of Year 27 ((:
As always, much love -Jes 🤟🏼🔑
