the depth for which we all carry
Overtime some will come into acceptance that one might not have the opportunity of knowing the whole version of them. The version of them that is intelligent, mindful, expansive, or whatever comes to mind. Even to the intuitive pulls that guide their every minute decisions in life. The factors for which circumstances also guided those very decisions. The depth for which we all carry.
Many of us are superficial, or in other words, surface level when it comes to our day to day interactions, relationships or connections in the making. We become zombies, NPCs, or go into airplane mode as we go into these repetitive day to day routines. As humans we are such creatures of habits. Not realizing when we go into the three levels of muting ourselves, it’s also going to mute us from those deep authentic human connections.
From my own experience, I think about this time of last year, on how I would show up to these sacred memories in the making with my coworkers after we all closed shop. We would sit there for an hour or for many hours at a time. All going with our own flows, yet allowing that space for after work for us to decompress from our recent work shift that we all just went above and beyond for. Yet in those after work memories, we would connect, be altogether or in our individual conversations amongst the whole group. That space allowed for some of the most authentic connections I’ve experienced to now. Some very much thriving as we continue to be connected even states away. Super grateful and appreciative to every one of those connections.
It’s moments like those in my life that I love when flashing through them, as we all move forward with our lives individually. Moments I’ll be grateful for through the rest of what this life has to offer for me.
Moving forward from memories like those, has shown myself such gratitude that I have through experiencing the human connection. How each connection we have the opportunity of, will be molded differently based on the approach, communication and continuation of effort on each end given. How some fade away, while others grow for the same very reason once faded. Each one that we all create, consisting of different equations of energy be how we receive and give to one another.
There’s such depth in all of us, how are we approaching that? Are we continuing that zombie mode? Are we going to further that NPC energy in this matrix of surface level connections we are in? Are we going to continue being the pilot of the airplane mode we are now aware of flying? How do you approach the depth of you? Once you acknowledge the depth of you, you will open the space of acknowledging the depth for which we all carry.
Each one of us has a multitude of facets within us. Most of us go in life while muting that deepness of us. Which then mutes others in our lives in the process. Recently, I almost shut down this amazing opportunity of acknowledging the depth of myself already within, which in turn was going to mute the opportunity of seeing depth in this person who brought an opportunity to me. I previously saw myself as not worthy, and that turned into me viewing them as not worthy on top of them not being “worth” the energy to be given. This opportunity has since changed the depth for which my life goes, and will create space for more depth to be experienced than previously open to. I see now that I was acting out of a surface level, yet shallow mindset. That shallow mindset was one of a close minded perspective and definitely not open to expanding. Once I began to realize that I was in a close minded, “already made up my mind” perspective, I’m able to take it into accountability and speak of that here now.
A lot of my growing realizations are when I see that I’ve made my mind about something and so it’s “automatically” true. For nothing is set in stone, as stone is the truth unfolding everyday as we evolve. The truth is free of our minds. The truth exists out of our mind, what we might think to be true isn’t fully the truth for which exists.
As I interact with people, I allow the space of depth to flow through. I desire knowing people in that level of depth. While in return they too, get the opportunity of knowing me to their own depths of knowing. Key perception moving forward; to their own depths of knowing. This perception will allow you to know that how deep one is with themself, is how deep they will show up to their connections. It’s not to be taken personal, more so to be seen as is, while embracing it and moving forward. Some will eventually open up to that depth level, and that creates the space to connect. However, it’s not our responsibility to wait for them to open up if they ever do. If we are to meet again and to connect deeply later on, that’s beautiful for what it is. Let’s not force it now, or to ever be.
I always used to joke that some aren’t able to know me because I’m “too intense”. I realize now I wasn’t ever serious of knowing myself in those intense moments of life or intense moments of experience, the aspects of life where we all feel so human. Now I desire opportunities that allow others and myself to experience the intense raw human aspects of one another while allowing unconditional love to radiate as we do so. I’m also able to see, not everyone is going to see the intense sides of my human experience, but to be extra grateful to those who do.
I used to get upset because I didn’t allow people to know me in depth, I would mask and be so surface level with them, then get upset about it. Looking back it felt like the energy of that alone, was the energy of hiding. It’s no wonder people didn’t know me when I hid those beautiful parts of me from them to know. I had a toxic approach then, where it would fester and become this one sided anger. Anger because no one would ever “know me” or “understand” the true intelligence I feel coursing though my veins. How, the way I view life is so “unique”, or is so “beautiful” to express. Yet I wasn’t expressing it, I was masking. I was hiding myself from the world. I was also coming from such an egoic perspective and stance on the world. The ego from which I used to let drive me, mainly.
Now the ego within, is acknowledged as is, because the ego is going to be in every one of us. It’s not really going anywhere, it’s for us to know about and to identify when it’s taking a stance in our lives or our perspective. How we can utilize it as a tool, rather than abuse it in regards to ourselves and/or others.
Perspective with all this in mind has also shown, that for those in depth or masking themselves, are to both be equally embraced as is. I will not shame those in masking mode, I embrace them. I won’t look down upon them or ask them to change. I’ll embrace them as is. We all deserve that unconditional love and embracement however level we approach life in. However level of depth we approach ourselves to, and unto others.
As I end this article, I smile because I see it all for what it is. This is the beginning of introducing the depth for which we all carry.
Thank you, as always much love to you & yours - jes. <333 ((:
